As I sit here tonight, like so many other nights, wrapped in my own thoughts and ideas, I can't help but look back over the time that I've been through college and what I've learned and how I have such a clearer picture on what I want out of life.
Through both an economic recession, and with a very few exceptions, a big waste of my time socially, I've come to realize that no amount of academic prowess, unions of ideas, or inquiries will bring you closer to the friendships that you've always wanted. The white picketed fence, the social changes, some empire to revel or worship over is nothing without someone to pick up the pieces when you shatter. Such simple nourishment, such trust, is something I've rarely, or possibly never, had in my life and if I had my own Mirror of Arised; that's what it would show.
What remains of my time here in college, I realize that the aspects of my personality that I have suppressed to help alleviate these social circumstances cannot be held back any longer. Slowly my inner feelings, desires, and visions of the future will be all held entirely for everyone to see. If this causes some form of conformist (or bohemian hipster) animosity than that is their own inner workings. Just because of your social circle doesn't make you better than me. If this makes me "ignorant" or "non-progressive" or any other epithets that might be levied my way, the let it be so.
If the most ardent conservative who wants to know how I compete, or some angry college liberal wants to know how I somehow rectify some nascent intolerant tendency I would tell them this. My heart is forever unified with the inner workings of my mind. Inquiry is what I live by, but yet I take the time to let my soul fill with the nourishment that only those I trust provide. As long in some small way I advance humanity through my professional work or personal actions I will still have the light of a new day woven inside me. I will never be able to satisfy everyone and the things that define their existence. I just hope that I will one day unify my heart with another kind and like minded person.
Have a wonderful night,
Justin Lynn Reid
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