Many years ago, just when I began to become interested in meteorology, my social existence was once in balance. Back then I felt like I could recite everything that was swirling in my mind at that moment and could unite with another person in heart and in spirit. But unfortunately as I grew older that feeling melted away quickly and I was considered something to scorn and to toss aside as some kind of sideshow to the greater realities of everyday problems. I had no voice, and seemingly had no meaning in a world where other things took higher precedence.
That year was 1998, and since then I have become the meteorologist that I've worked to become for 17 years. I have a voice in poetry and in photography also and despite the continual economic challenges of the early 2010s my career feels like it's going in the right direction. However beyond any accolade, award, or dream job that I receive, my greatest accomplishment is something far more deeper.
This new time in my life gives me an element of power that I felt that I would never reach again. Instead of fearing of being berated on the reasons why I am worthless, I can now change to some extent the circumstances in which my life is based around. Movements, politicians, promises of some golden empire that I'll rule from a subdivision, they all mean nothing without being free of a system that almost destroyed both my soul and my personality. What are rebellions to rally around if you are hated? In my view they are absolutely nothing and even in college horrid social circumstances have reminded me what brings me solace and what is just a collection of false promises.
So as I now join the adult world, I do this without longing for the past or fear that I will become a castaway or leper of my generation. I make my life my sanctuary, not a worship of ideas that I'm coerced to conform to. It will take a long time to heal all of the damage my peers have done to me, but I have come to forgive those who are still ignorant to understand and cherish those who actually gave just a small amount of time to be with me. I know that my life is worth something, I just had to silence the voices that told me that it wasn't.
